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Photo Challenge #FO5photo day 12

Published December 2, 2014 by thefamilyof5

Today’s theme is ‘Close Up’

I almost forgot about it today, I only remembered this evening which is a shame because baby girl and I had therapy earlier and in aid of ‘self care’ we treated ourselves to a lovely lunch afterwards! She ordered the biggest chip butty i’ve ever seen and washed it down with a huge slice of chocolate cake topped with cream! I was a little more sensible and ordered a healthy jacket spud with a hot chocolate, it was topped with cream mind, all in aid of ‘self care’ of course 🙂

So my photo today, instead of her chocolate chops, or the enormous chip butty, is a close up of baby girl, we had lots of fun taking this photo and trying out different angles, this one made us laugh the most!

We did a quick bogie check first!

We did a quick bogie check first!

The Supermarket Challenge

Published March 30, 2013 by thefamilyof5

A conversation that took place today whilst trying to attempt a trip to Sainsburys………

Me: right let’s go, can you carry the bag for me please baby girl
Big girl: do we need 2 bags?
Me: no one will be fine.

*we get in the car

Baby girl: can we get a trolley?
Me: yes a small one
Baby girl: but I wanted to sit in it *sulks
Big girl: can I get the trolley cause she’s carrying the bag, its fair then
Me: yes ok
Baby girl: I didn’t want the bag *sulks
Big girl: can I push the trolley
Me: no I’ll push the trolley
Big girl: oh I thought I could push it *sulks
Baby girl: if we get some shopping can I put it in the trolley
Me: yes you can help me
Big girl: we could take it in turns so its fair
Me: yes ok
Baby girl: can I give the shopping to the lady?
Me: yes you can help me
Big girl: can I put the shopping in the bag?
Me: yes you can help me
Big girl: if we need bread can I choose it?
Me: we don’t need bread
Baby girl: we might need cake?
Me: we don’t need cake
Big girl: can I carry your bag?
Me: no I’ll carry it because it has money inside
Baby girl: can I carry the keys

Me: *insert therapeutic reply (what I said certainly wasn’t therapeutic)

* we arrived at Sainsburys

The conversation continued along the same lines with lots of ‘can we get’ ‘I like’ and ‘those look yummy’ etc.

Next time, I’m going alone! I only needed Cream Eggs!

What does support look like?

Published March 9, 2013 by thefamilyof5

What does support look like to you?

I was asked this question by the local authority at Mondays meeting and I struggled to answer. Its a tricky question I think, its bit like someone asking you what you want for tea when you don’t know what’s in the fridge.

So I’ve been trying to think about what it is I want/need when I’m asking for support and I’ve decided what I really need is somewhere to off load. It can’t just be anywhere though. It has to be somewhere/someone that understands.

My head is a constant whirr of ‘stuff’ its full to the brim and dripping over the sides. Occasionally my brain seizes an opportunity to loose some ‘excess baggage’ and bam before I know what’s going on, I’ve poured my heart out all over some poor unsuspecting passer by that simply asked ‘how are you today?’. I’m sure it won’t be long before a checkout lady in Sainsburys report’s me to some sort of mental health organisation. So what can I do? How can I safely off load without the risk of drowning innocent people with my thoughts or being sectioned in to a mental health institute?!

So off loading to random passer by’s is inappropriate.

I have friends and family I ‘could’ off load too, and I’ve tried this in the past and It didn’t go so well. Mostly because they dont/cant understand, they can only offer me sympathy when what I really need is validation and understanding of my thoughts, feelings and worries. In fact this is partly the reason that many people turned their backs and walked away, they just didn’t understand which left me and them equally frustrated.

So it has to be someone that gets it.

I have friends locally that have adopted that I could share a coffee and a chat with, but offloading my entire brain on to 1 person would be overwhelming and unfair to them, after all they have their own issues they’re facing and I have a lot to offload.

So it needs to be a group of people that get it.

I have a fantastic group of supporters online that I’m eternally grateful to have found, and I’ve received some amazing messages through my blog, you know who you are, but its not enough, not for me anyway, I need/want all of those amazing people that have offered me support right here right now, drinking coffee, sharing some (low fat of course) cake. I want real hugs not virtual ones, I want to be able to look in to someone’s eyes and see their understanding rather than looking at a profile picture of something random, I want to hear their voices and see their faces, I want it all, anything less it seems, just isn’t enough.

So whilst virtual support groups help, they aren’t enough.

So where does this leave me? This leaves me wanting a real life, weekly support group, somewhere I can go and chat, a place where I can share my idea’s, a safe haven where I can air my concerns, a group of people that can validate my fears. People that know, people that understand, people that get it, people just like me. There must be more of me surely, I can’t be the only adoptive parent with a need to talk, talk and talk some more?!

The problem is, there just aren’t any of these support groups local to me.

CAMHS Session 8 – baby girls turn.

Published June 12, 2012 by thefamilyof5

Big waste of time!

But after the 55 minute appointment…………………………

Baby girl had a lovely day with me shopping, cake, more shopping and slush puppy’s!

I miss having my baby girl home, it’s so unfair that she had to start school! *pushes bottom lip out, stomps foot and sulks

CAMHS session 7 – Time for Cake!

Published May 14, 2012 by thefamilyof5

Not only is it Monday, but we started the day with a 9.30am trip to CAMHS for my middle girl! Mondays don’t get much more exciting than that now do they!

My middle girl was quite relaxed, seemed to be excited to be spending some time with me and getting to do some ‘colouring in’ at CAMHS instead of a morning at school.

We arrived early as we went straight from the school run which was ok as it gave her time to settle, which she did. A few minutes after 9.30am the therapist called us through.
My middle girl took the picture she’d started through with her and continued it. The therapist didn’t do much talking, there was lots of uncomfortable silence I felt. Was he lost for words?! Did he not know how to approach the session?!
He did talk about my middle girls smile and how he felt she smiled even when she might be feeling sad. He talked about feeling safe and which people she has around her to keep her safe and how this must feel.

My middle girl smiled a lot and said very little and snuggled up to me, something he hadn’t seen her do before and something she doesn’t often do around her sisters, her snuggles come when its just me and her.
Less than 25 minutes later we were on our way home with an appointment for a months time for my baby girl.
Had she beaten him? Did he think she was just too stubborn to get through to? Had he given up trying to get her to talk/respond/acknowledge him? Had he sensed I was tired and not in the mood? Perhaps he wasn’t in the mood? Maybe he’s starting to wind down for his retirement? Or maybe he just couldn’t be arsed?
Either way it was the quickest session ever, if I’d known how quick it was going to be I’d have parked in the hospital free short stay spaces rather than the pay and display!

My middle girl was quite happy to leave early, it meant we had time to spare before she returned to school, time for a cake and a drink in the cafe 🙂

I’m still left wondering the purpose of these appointment and when the real therapy will start!

Life, or lack of it!

Published March 22, 2012 by thefamilyof5

I’m referring to my life not my girls, they are all safe and well before anyone rushes for the phone 🙂

My life however has vanished and become buried underneath being a mom, washing, cleaning, dusting and cake!

Dont get me wrong, I like cake but there’s only so much I can eat before I feel like I want to vomit.

My house is the cleanest its ever been.

And there are only so many DVD and sofa days one can enjoy before becoming insanely bored, im going to have a sofa shaped bottom soon.

I never thought I’d ever miss being a tax payer, but I do.

I’m not brave enough to enter into the world of full-time employment just yet, and realistically, even part-time would be a juggle around the girls appointments and that’s not to mention the fact that the child care would cost more than I could earn. Besides I have very little head space these days, my mind is preoccupied with worry and stress.

So then theres volunteer work. Volunteers arent  as ‘in demand’ as you’d think. I’m signed up and approved with 2 different organisations and since christmas I’ve ‘worked’ a whole 2 hours.

So is this it, is this what being a stay at home mom is like!?

Time for another slice of cake…………………

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